Shiona Rae

Im finally back at home after my first full year of university. It wasn't as scary as I thought it might be, but in the end nothing ever is, is it? You work up your nerves before the big speech and feel like you may puke out your guts. But while you're up there the words flow off the tongue and you sound like you may have actually rehearsed what you're saying. You look at the roller coaster with the vertical drop and imagine the number of people who must have flown off that thing and tell your friends you'll never risk your life on it; 10 minutes later you're experiencing the craziest feeling of weightlessness, but the strangest thing is that you love it. You date someone with the knowledge that it will only end one of two ways: separation or commitment. You're terrified of both, but we all know which we'd prefer. But say you know the dumping is coming; you're scared of the pain that's about to hit, but once it's over you realize that being singl...

So today was my last day on the dorm, and it was graduation day. I woke up at 5:30 for breakfast at 6 only to find out that our band director had unintentionally lied to us band kids and that food would not be served until 7. At 7 we were supposed to be heading down to the football stadium to set up at 7:30. So I went back to my dorm and got dressed for performance and headed to the stadium after watching a few muppet videos on YouTube. There it was muggy and cold for the entire commencement, with a few rain drops falling sparsely, so that my bassoon almost got wet. But that was ok, we were given a poncho for if it rained, and I had already decided that it should go on the instrument first, because I can get over a cold, but my instrument cannot recover from water damage. During commencement we played Pomp and Circumstance for a good 20 minutes, and then had to play 5 other songs throughout the service. It was over by half past noon, and we put our instruments away for the summer. I th...

Today is my last full day on the dorms. Tomorrow I can finally retreat home to my nice bed for a night, then we are heading up to MA to visit family. I woke up at a leisurely 9:30 am with no alarm set, and didn't really do much during the morning. For a while I was sat on my bed watching remastered Doctor Who and listening to the sounds of a girl moving her stuff out. After that, my friend Ashely joined me in my room and I hung my band dress up by the window to air it out (unlucky me, it still stank after going on tour) and while we were waiting to leave we played a few rounds of UNO. When we were bored with that it was near enough time to leave that my roommate did my hair up all fancy, I did my makeup, grabbed my bassoon, and headed out the door to the Vines Center. There I ate an early pizza dinner and we set up for some Pre-Commencement thingy. We did that, and now I'm back in the dorm sat on my bed watching Doctor Who.

Today was not a day of complete awareness. I woke up at 7, went back to sleep, woke up at 9, and went back to sleep till noon. At this point my phone had dropped off my bed. I attempted to reach over the edge of my bed to grab the phone, but found myself on the floor after a fight with my bed sheets. At this sudden drop my roommate became aware of the fact that I, the monster, had awoken and told me "that's the bed's way of telling you to get up." So I did, and after waiting an hour, we went and grabbed lunch with some choir kids who had to stay on campus for graduation also. After I made some new friends I went back to my dorm and watched some original Dr Who season 1 until it was time to head out to a band picnic. At this picnic I was welcomed with the gift of a t-shirt portraying our band show from this year and an invitation to play softball. I decided it would be best not to show off my "skills" at softball and opted to fail at something new. Disk golf....

I woke up this morning with the sun shining through my window. I don't know how it managed this, as the sky was covered in clouds, but nevertheless, thus I was awoken. I didn't want to go to breakfast alone, so I texted another band girl and we went together. We have spent the day together since then, playing cards, drinking cocoa, and for a small while cleaning our instruments. It also happens to be my roommate's birthday, so I gave her a hug and have promised to do as she wishes tonight. It's 6 and the rain has finally ceased, and now it looks as if it were only noon. Ah well, at least there's cake. and more cocoa.

So today was the last day of exams, and all the boxes in the halls keep walking out the door. I slept in until I was awoken by a shout of "MAN ON THE HALL" by someone's dad, helping move her out. Then I went to lunch with my boyfriend/now best friend and we played pool until it was time for him to get his allergy shots. We talked about things and then he had to go home. I skyped with my forever bestie, she and I shared some songs and talked. I was thinking about maybe painting a picture, but just went for a sketch instead. Tomorrow I might paint it. Or later tonight. I have nothing else to do, and Facebook is boring me. Or maybe I'll knit a tea cozy? I have enough yarn.... it's a strong possibility. If I can remember where I put my movies, I might watch Tangled again, or Anastasia.... or the Little Rascals. Oh well, I have until Saturday to do all these things. woo.